Growing up, you are taught that drugs and drinking are bad habits to pick up. Stealing is something only bad people do. Smoking is bad. Making bad judgements and being reckless can kill you. Mistakes are something to bring you, and sometimes your loved ones, shame.
So through all this bad, how does one child find anything good to look to? How do you separate the evils of this life enough to find your own lifestyle in the bad mix?
As a young adult, I used to think in black and white. Things could never be gray. It was either right or wrong, and anyone who disagreed with me was beneath me. So I guess I grew up a little bit.
Well... a lot actually.
I'm seventeen and I have smoked weed and my fair share of Newport 100's.
I have drank alcohol and even helped steal a box of condoms once from the local pharmacy.
Throughout my short life, I've made poor decisions.
And as scary as it seems in retrospect, I have been very, VERY reckless with my life as well as the lives of others.
Am I a bad person?
I lie here on my bed at 5 AM and think this one over. I feel it's important to define for myself... and it must be decided tonight.
A cold room flooded by the light from my laptop. And then there's me. A bad person?
No. No, I can say with confidence, I am not a bad person. And I am not misguided. And I am not mistaken. Why? Well.. although by my mother's definitions I would be a danger... in my own mind I am exactly that. My own.
I believe there comes a time when you should try things you never thought of before. When you should explore, although it may kill you. Because we aren't going to live forever. We just aren't.
My activities and past-times are not me. My friends are not me. My decisions, not me.
But I am, just seventeen.
Simply seventeen.
A child needs a role model.
There things that are private that youdon't want other people to know because they might create a humour in the place where you work or in the school.
Even being seventeen you still not an adult and your parents woudl control you
and they would not allow you to have your freedom
You have to learn to speak up and stand up for your rights
Posted by: Aldo Kraas | 10/29/2008 at 07:15 PM