Fat & Beautiful = Impossible.

How can you be fat and beautiful at the same time?

I don't wanna be that fat girl who "could be pretty if only she lost the weight." And I certainly don't wanna be the girl who thinks she's fat, but really is and everybody else knows it even though she pretends to be clueless. That's just horrible irony right there.
But when I look in the mirror, I don't see pretty. I don't see a beautiful girl, overall.

Sometimes I see pretty eyes. Sometimes I see gorgeous hair. Sometimes I see beautiful, full lips that are to die for.

But I never see all those good things wrapped up into one package.

Maybe it's because of the father issues I had growing up with approval. Maybe it's because all my past boyfriends have been abusive. Maybe it's because of the media. Or because all through school the other kids have always picked on me and called me fat, picked me last for every game we ever played, and made me sit alone at the lunch tables. Or maybe, it's just my fault.

This is not a pity story. This is just a girl trying to figure out if fat can be beautiful. I don't wanna hear any of that "inner beauty counts the most" type of bullshit. For once, I just want to be beautiful. ON THE OUTSIDE.

I want to be sexy. Irresistable. Beautiful and pretty. Drop dead gorgeous. A N D a size 26.

Comments

[SamiAlkhalili]

[this is good] Completely true. To be irresitable and fat is a hard thing to accept, and most of the bullshit from other people, the positives can even bring you down. The typical diolog of saying the inner beauty counts is bullshit because of the media. The media ruin the men with hairy chests and women slightly overweight or fat. I come from a culture with women who are chunky were stars and love gods yet that was 60 years ago. But still they do appriecate the chubbiness. What I think, that it depends on men, men who aren't abusive, men who don't mind that extra layer. And there are men, and they don't necessary have to be ugly or not suitable to your fantasy. Men are everywhere. In the end, it all depends on you. On your hope, never give up. I never did. And if you don't want to change, then don't. Screw the media, screw name calling. I was critized too, and still am for my origin. I blame the media and closed minded people, yet I'm still living =)